Tonight I was alone with JuBean and it felt kind of eery.
Everyone was gone from about 4:00-10:30.
Everyone except me and JuBean.
I was wondering what to do with just the two of us.
I folded some laundry…
I made dinner for one and a half…
I moved the sprinkler around the lawn to water the dry spots.
The house was so quiet and calm and settled.
It felt so lonely. And then I started to feel lonely.
Quickly, I was pulled away by JuBean to go outside and jump on the tramp.
That is something I haven’t done in a long time.
So I took the time tonight and just played with my baby.
It felt so good.
We danced to music, played chase and had a bum war. JuBean is quite good at that game.
Then as the dawn sky started to reveal the stars, we laid down and looked at the heavens.
What will it be like when it really is just JuBean and myself?
Life will be so different from these whirlwind years of raising 8 children and having a very busy husband.
Will I be able to handle so much quiet and time for myself?
Finally, one child came home, then two more. Then EB showed up and I felt better.
I loved my alone time with JuBean, but time like that doesn’t happen very often.
I know that it will be the norm some day but for today…
give me the hustle and bustle and the sweet feeling of family chaos.
It’s all I know.